Hello @Paula62,
Thank you for so bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about Alison.
You are not alone. You might want to connect with @Jeannie6. They recently posted this thread where she shared her experiences of losing her sister. You may understand some of what each other are going through.
You might also want to read our Losing a sibling support page. It will talk you through some of what you’re feeling and how to cope.
The community is here for you, whether you want to chat, ask advice or just get something off your chest.
Take care,
Seaneen