Hi im in similar situation lost my other half 2 months ago ,i was her carer for last 6 weeks of her life .our relationship was rocky at times but we depended on each other especially in last 5 years. I miss her terribly, but her memory is tainted because of things i have found out in revent weeks, i and a female freind realised my partner was bipolar she would have manic highs and depressive lows. I had trouble coping with her lows, but the highs were something else she would put her self in dangerous situations. I discovered sge was having having on off relations with other men . But was never overly discreet. Some people new , but nobody told me until recently. They felt sorry for me ,i would do evetything to help her , helped keep her job by covering for her, we worked at same place .i also realise with bipolar she could not help it. Part of the illness, she had ,had treatment for it as a young teenager and was given lithium for it. But her mother must have stopped it ,she must have known, what her daughter was like over the years. I am having trouble comjng tovterms with that, as well as her death. Our flat was akways nice and i have kept it the same ,but now i just want to move, away from here, to devon where i have some family, it was something we planned to do. Think my partner had settled down a bit its the actual movibg will be difficult its a housing trust flat and i am trying to swap, but i need it to happen sooner rather than originally planned. Im so lost and in despair at times ,last week [method removed by Online Community Manager as it breaks our Community Guidelines] but stopped in time .but am still very low.
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