Hi P0rtavadie, thank you for your lovely message. I hope you had a lovely family meal today. We are already in tier 4 here so we can only see my Dad who is in our bubble. We were meant to be seeing my in laws boxing day but we’re not allowed now. It is confusing for my son at times I think, but he understands to a certain extent. We will see my Dad tomorrow at his and then I think he is coming to us on Boxing Day.
I lost my Mum 9 months ago too on the 22nd. I know what you mean, it is horrible not buying a card or presents. I found it very hard buying a Dad card and not Mum & Dad, but having to buy my in laws one saying that was hard too. I have always loved choosing presents for my Mum, we had similar tastes and hobbies etc so it has been hard. I don’t think time will ever fully heal, I know that sounds pessimistic, but I think with time I will learn to live with the pain but it will never go away. I’ve actually found it harder as time has gone on, not easier. My Mum didn’t really get a proper send off either like yours, but I just can’t see it happening now which is a real shame. It’s impossible to plan things at the moment, as we just don’t know what will happen. I’m dreading March anyway as I lost my Mum on Mother’s Day and her birthday is March too, so I just know it will be so hard. Even harder than now I’m sure you feel the same.
You are right and it does help having a little one around to get in the festive mood and take my mind off things. He definitely helps me get through in general. I just want to make my Mum proud now and give him the great childhood I had myself.
Thank you so much for talking to me too and I’m so glad it has helped you. The same goes to you, reach out if you need to. Take care and Merry Christmas xx