Hi Jamie,
I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of Travis, and I’m glad that you’ve had such supportive responses from our community. I hope that they have helped to reassure you that it is not unhealthy to do things that help you feel closer to him. There is a theory of grief called Continuing Bonds, which says that it is normal and healthy to continue to feel a sense of connection to a loved one who has died. Things like keeping their possessions, talking to them, or writing to them can be part of this. If anyone would like to read more, this is a helpful article: https://whatsyourgrief.com/grief-concept-care-continuing-bonds/