The 2nd February 2022 is a year since I lost my mum.Around December 2021 she was starting to get better in hospital and I thought she was going to be ok then she took a turn for the worse at the end of January.She developed aspiration pneumonia.I found out my mother died over the phone.I found out my mother was in an induced coma over the phone and I found out she had woken up on Christmas eve over the phone.On the 2nd February 2021 I couldn’t watch my mother take her last breath so I left the hospital.She died not long after at 7.45pm.After this everything has been a blur.I had to carry on because I have a 9 year old son and I had to explain to my son that his nanny had died.That was the hardest conversation I had to have.How do you get over losing your mum and I
How do you get use to her not being around.I hate people who take their mums for granted now because you never know the last conversation you will have with your mum.The last words I said to my mum were goodbye before she took a turn for the worse and the doctors refused to do anything more.My mother fought till the end.Her strength and courage was amazing.I hope she is at peace now.
If anyone has just lost a parent.My heart breaks for you but time doesn’t heal but it does help.I know how hard it is at the beginning your world stops but life goes on.You are stronger than you know.Life will be hell for a while but there is a light at the end of the tunnel but it is a very long tunnel.Thats what this year has taught me.Its just life.
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I am so sorry for your loss. It’s been a year and 11 weeks for me since I lost my beautiful brave Mum. I still struggle every day with her loss. Mum fought with Copd for many years and I’m the end it won. The year before she died we got her a nice little house in the town I live in so it would be easier for me to look after her. I will always be truly grateful for that year, seeing her everyday. My heart breaks every day without her and I’d do anything to hear her voice again.
Sending you lots of love
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Thank you im sorry for your loss i feel your pain.
Since November my life has been hell.I had a breakdown because i was looking after everyone else but myself but things are starting to get better slowly.Havent seem my son since 23rd November 2021 but hopefully that will change soon.There has been so many times lately that i was sick of being on this planet but i kept fighting because i dont my son to have to go through what i am going through.Hes the most amazing little boy he has so much of my mum in him.Hes a gift for all the hell ive been through in my life and he is the reason im still here.I am the proudest mum.The resilience he has is unbelievable.Hes my light in the darkness,
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It’s so dam hard isn’t it to try and focus on just getting through each day, I’m just over 6months from losing my mum and although I don’t cry as much as I did I still feel so lost and unable to focus on doing the things I just took for granted, guilt still eats away at me, I think that’s what’s stopping me moving forward, it’s as though something is punishing me & making me feel guilty for doing anything I feel my mum is missing out on, I still can’t accept she’s gone It’s so surreal 
, life is cruel isn’t it 
I miss her so much, hopefully things will get sorted with your son and he’ll be that special link you have with your dear mum to help you through the dark times, take care
Lynn xx
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