Alan. Today’s the anniversary of the day that I lost you and it felt as though my life had ended too What we shared will never die it lives within my heart. I will love you forever and a day, and for as long as I live your memory will survive.
One year I’ve been lost, one year I’ve needed you
And one year I couldn’t hold you in my arms
I’ve found solace in your memory
The memories we shared and the times so long ago lost.
They say time heals all wounds, but it never seems to go away
Some days I am at peace, some days I remember you with smiles
and tears of joy
Days that feel like eternities because I cannot laugh with you.
I talk to you, cry to you. It’s been so long
It still feels like it was yesterday that your number lit up my phone
It still feels like yesterday that I had a special person in this world
whom I could call my best friend.
It still feels like yesterday that my heart was broken beyond repair
I’ve never felt pain like this
I’ve never grieved like this
Your death just still doesn’t feel real.
I promise I’m trying to move on
I promise I just want to make you proud of the woman I am trying to become
But sometimes it feels like the harder I try the harder it becomes
There will never come a day that I don’t miss you
There will never come a day I don’t beg God for one more day, for one more hug.
The only thing that keeps me afloat is the belief that you are still here
That your soul lives on and that I will see you again one day
Words can’t describe the joy you brought into my life or the loss I feel now
You will always be the best friend I have ever had
And I will always thank God for the years I was lucky enough to have you.