Ok so now i feel i can post more. Tbh i dunno even know why i feel.this helps. Its been 10 days and its the 6 week’s hoilday for.my kids. The first part of the 6 weeks i was with him at the hospital and now we are here. He was an acholic for years amd refused to go.to hospital. It got to the point i needed to phone the ambulance, he had liver failure plus a bled and and organ failre. If i called sooner could he still be here? Will.the kids blame.me.when thier older? Ive lost my soul mate and cant see anyway out
Oh, please don’t think that you are to blame. Please stop torturing yourself.
We all go through this. But it isn’t your fault.
Having lost my parents, sister, two husbands, and several more, my silly brain managed to find a reason to beat myself up. It seems to be what our minds do.
It’s a normal reaction. Keep posting, others here will understand. We have all done this.
Love and hugs. Xx
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I cant stop thinking about it. I lost my dad to the same thing at the same.age as my youngest. I feel like im not even here. Ive never felt anything like it. My heart actually hurts. I never wanted this for them. I never wamted them to have a bad childhood and i failed. I failed thier dad and them.