What’s the solution ? how do we cope ? 16 months on since losing mum.
How do we cope ?
I’m on my own having grew up and bought up by mum. I still even rent the same flat I lived with mum. I’m surrounded by memories of everything. Memories of mum and things we did together pop into my mind regular. The tears are still with me emphasized even more by the fact I was diagnosed with Myeloma Cancer back in June. I get support with that from Maggie’s and the hospital. But when I’m alone in the flat then I’m open to all those memories I have. I have a sister and received a Christmas card yesterday, but can’t return the favour as I don’t know her address. A neighbour popped in earlier and will help me to put up curtains for the living room. I’m not prepared for Christmas probably like a lot of here as spending Christmas alone is crap. I chose to work last year Christmas Day and Boxing Day. But this year that won’t be the case as I came off all work due to Myeloma Cancer. Not looking forward to it, last meeting tomorrow at Maggie’s Myeloma Support Group before the holidays. Then I most likely come home to a empty flat. It’s soul destroying isn’t it ,? I never been married or have kids so I’m totally alone in my grief really. The one person who truly loved me has gone. What’s the answer to all this? this isn’t a life, it’s just a existence nothing more.