Is it normal to have a complete meltdown coming up to the first anniversary? I can’t sleep, can’t be bothered to get showered and dressed, don’t want to leave the house, make excuses not to see friends and keep bursting into tears. I thought I was doing reasonably okay but over the last few weeks it feels like my whole world has been tipped upside down
@Sweetpea68 I could have written this!
I, too have the first anniversary coming up and I also seem to have gone backwards. People have started asking me if I am OK, how am I, etc. I know exactly what they are getting at but I just want to be left alone to my own private thoughts so I say that I’m just fine. On the date I plan to switch my phone off, visit my Go To Place and be alone. No idea how I will feel afterwards, but hopefully we will be able to get a bit more clarity once the date has passed?
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It’s so hard isn’t it. I’m half way through redecorating the whole house and was going great guns but now I just can’t be bothered to keep going with it and feel guilty for wanting to change it.
Hope your day goes okay x
Glad I found this post although I’m sorry you both are having to experience this.
My husbands anniversary is March, and I can feel myself starting to unravel and just want to run away from everything.
I have 4 kids so I know I have spent the last 10 months just supporting them and pushing my grief down - inhibited grief my counsellor called it.
But it’s now showing up in other ways - stress, lack of sleep, irritability and anger at everyone else in the world.
I thought I was doing better, but it seems not and also just seem to be going backwards.
As you say maybe things will be clearer when that first year is over.
I don’t expect it to be any better but perhaps knowing all the firsts are done will help settle to settle things down a bit.
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