Tomorrow 23rd of May would have been his 58th birthday this time last year I was getting tickets to take him to the royal air fleet museum. I think it was that day that I new his health had got worse he kept having to sit down. And when he wanted to leave we hadn’t got even half way round I remember being really angry which I feel so guilty about now. I had started to move forward with life but just the last few weeks leading up to tomorrow I have been feeling all sorts of emotions again, guilt, sadness, flash backs of the day he passed away. I just don’t want tomorrow to come or to skip the day and carry on with the day after. I miss him so much and not still one day goes by when I don’t think about him. I hope the day comes when I do think about him I am happy not sad and can look back on all the good memories but it is just still to raw.
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Hello @Suzanne.w,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support.
Important dates can feel extra hard, but we’re here to help if you need us.
You might find our guide to coping with important dates useful, Sue Ryder Grief Guide
Take good care of yourself,
Alex
I hope you made it through today ok. I’m so sad to hear you feel guilty. I felt so much of that when my sister died. I’ll see if I can find the podcast about Ed Byrne losing his brother and the guilt he felt and link it on here. I found it really helpful and interesting x
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