Thank you Mrsmac.
48 weeks sounds a long long time but I guess in grief terms it isn’t at all. I like the rucksack scenario. I am looking for a counsellor and the inquest charity is helping me with this. I am looking to join the compassionate friends group as they have one in Hove near me but they have too many going at present so need to wait. The GP is going to give me a sleeping pill so we will try that but it’s not that you want to forget it’s just the pain everyday is so hard. I also can’t easily talk to family they would switch off. I already feel that because I was my daughters primary carer I am told I was so co dependent on her and perhaps that was true, but I am so glad I was. Some people say year 2 is worse than year 1 so I just hope that is not the case.
Thsnks again and so sorry for your sad loss and everyone else in the thread and forum. Andy, x