Hi All,
Just dropping by to say how hard this coming 2nd anniversary of Mum’s death feels.
Hadn’t anticipated my body remembering the build up through Mum’s sudden illness and subsequent death.
It happened over 12 days. A very fit 73yr old woman. Starting with a pain and then major cancer diagnosis and all went very fast. Whilst I haven’t been consciously thinking of it, I realised the other day how flat I was feeling, and not wanting food, not wanting to see people or talk. When I reflected I realised I was unconsciously “back there”, in those last days.
It feels like a struggle at the moment. I know I’ll get through it. Mostly because I know that’s what Mum would want, which really helps.
Just sharing this- 1. Because I just needed to say it out loud in a group which feels soothing, and 2. Because maybe it will be useful to someone else coming up to the 2 year anniversary.
The pain will always be there I realise. Not to the intensity of those first days, weeks, months, but still an immense sadness and yearning for someone I loved and who loved me. For which I will forever be grateful.
Love and cwtches to you all 
Hello @Garden_girl,
I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m just giving your thread a gentle, “bump” for you - hopefully someone will have some thoughts to share.
Take good care,
Alex
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Hi,
Just had to leave a message and say thank you to you for thinking of others while you’re on your own grief journey. It’s incredibly kind of you to share your experience so others might be prepared for what’s to come.
Sending love,
Louisa
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Thankyou Louisa
Thankyou Alex