Is this normal to feel worse this second christmas without mum. I have grieved so hard wasnt sure i could do this past 2 years but i have. Now i feel like i have gone back to how i felt at the beginning and because i work full time i just want to be on my own when i get home as my family really dont understand
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Hello @Marie17 ,
I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. No matter how long it’s been, holidays and special occasions can be an especially painful time for those who are grieving, but we’re here to help if you need us.
You might find our guide to coping with important dates useful, Sue Ryder Grief Guide
If you do find yourself needing extra support this Christmas, please visit our online bereavement support at Sue Ryder’s Online Bereavement Support | Sue Ryder. The community is here for you, too.
Take good care of yourself,
Alex
Marie,
Grief has no timeline and the more you loved a person the harder the loss!
Yes ‘firsts’ are tough but any special occasions when families used to get together are going to be difficult!
I hope your family realise you are finding this time tough, have you told them?
Good resources mentioned by Alex and this group is always here.
Take care
Yes i have told them but because they have no clue they just carry on as normal which in a way is good but at the same time be nice to see a bit of care xxx
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Ive certainly found this second christmas more painful - i was watching a webinar last night about christmas grief and the host said often the first year we are still in shock / numb - for me I had only interred mums ashes mid December. So by the second year if the shock has eased, the true emotions are coming to the surface more - i guess thats why a lot of people say they find year 2 in general more difficult. Plus christmas is only an annual event, so whilst ive had over 400 days of grief, this is only my 2nd Christmas! Will you be able to have some time alone? Its perfectly okay to decline any invites. Sending hugs to you 
Hi,
Yes I lost mum two years ago and it seems harder now than it was before I thought I’d come to some understanding and try to get back on track with my life, but it’s still affecting me everyday even when I’m out of my flat, the emotional stress is causing me to do stuff that I never did before and I don’t feel well anymore
Everything is so bleak and depressing and I can’t see myself getting through another year without losing my mind
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