2nd time widow in 20years

I am really struggling as I have been widowed for a second time in 20 years. Never thought I would have to go through this again, I feel as if I am being punished for something for this to be happening to me again. Really struggling to hold it all together

So sorry for your loss. That must be incredibly difficult to deal with. I just can’t imagine going through this twice.
You had the strength to get through it and you will do it again. We have to be patient with ourselves. That’s what I keep telling myself.
You will get a lot of support on here.
Sending hugs xx