Just recently joined the site. My mum passed away from cancer just over 3 months away. (16th Jan)
I think the grieving process has only just kicked in, as after she passed my feet didn’t touch the ground with my wedding being on the 19th March.
I’m now sat deep in my thoughts whilst away with work and I still wonder why her?
She was only 61 years young, didn’t do drugs, wasn’t an alcoholic. She did a lot for community with both the Scouts and the Air Training Corp (so much so the church was full the about 250 people when my brother and I carried her in)
I was so gutted she couldn’t be there on my wedding day in March and found it particularly hard when it came to Mothers Day as the last one I had spent deployed in Afghanistan)
The amazing team at Nettlebed told me it could be a while before the grief kicks in but it knocks me for six and weird things can trigger it.
I Guess as a male it’s hard to not have a strong exterior to those around me and I do talk about it as it does help, but I still just don’t know why her?
Sorry for the rant