Thank you @jrthron, sorry to hear what you are going and been through, none of us wver wabted to be in this position did we. Your wife Jacquie sounds similar thoughts to Bob, he said when times up its up, he also told me he wasnt scared of dying, he was more worried about how we all would cope, but i told hom we would and i would make sure we are all ok.
I am glad to hear work has been ok for you, and can hear you with the evenings being hard.
Today i have been super busy! 8 mile dog walk with my jack russell, then back home to get the other 2 dogs to do a field walk for hour to tire them out as i then went for sunday lunch woth my daughter, i am struggling to make food home my fridge still empty, no appetite at home or inclination to make anything! Then we went to see the Script in concert which had booked ages ago, we left early though, i felt really sad as ths lead singer was talkong about when they lost a bamd member last year and how grief is hard and then started to say nice things aboit people suffering grief, then there was a young couple on stage where the young man proposed to hia girlfriend which was lovely to see, so happpy they were, but i know this sounds awful but i also felt really upset it was all bit to much. I held it together because was with my daughter but my throat was reallt hurting holding back the tears, i was glad when she said mum we getting wet through, shall we go home? I jumped at saying yes. These are the things that take us by surprise when least expect it.
Anyway sorry for going on, i hope you are ok. Take care x