Its 6 months today since by husband said to me ‘I am going out on the bike … be back in about an hour’ and I replied’yeah, whatever; as usual. … he never made it home. It seems like just yesterday in my head, and I keep replayiing the day in slow motion. Ironically, he used to bike regularly for the exercise as it was good for the heart … and he had a cardiac arrest !!
Needless to say I am not having a good day today 
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Dear @Audrey54
I am sorry to hear of the loss of your husband. It is ok to have a bad day and it is good that you have come on here and reached out. Grieving is a rollercoaster ride of different and unexpected emotions with good days and bad days all of which are normal and part of the grieving process. It is ok, to scream, shout and cry if it helps.
Grief is a journey to be taken at your pace, it is a not a race and you must be gentle with yourself and most importantly take care of yourself. There is a useful informative Grief Guide which will help you understand and cope with your bereavement and grief and discover new ways to cope.
You can connect with members here who have found themselves in a similar situation as yourself by typing in the search bar ‘Losing a Partner’. We are all here for you, you are not alone. Please continue to reach out and take care.
Pepsi
Hello Audrey,
I just wanted to send you a warm virtual hug of comfort as I understand how you feel.
I lost my husband 6 mth ago suddenly and unexpectedly, his heart too. He collapsed in front of me speaking one second, giving him CPR the next.
I feel the same about time and flash backs.
We have no good days, just sad days and then these awful bad days. We can only push through the heartache to find those morsels of calm. I wish I had some wise words for you xx I just wanted you to know you’re not alone in your bad day feelings. Wishing you a more peaceful evening xx
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