My Mum died nearly 6 months ago. I’ve gone through the horrible shock and visceral sadness. After a few weeks of feeling quite ok, I’m having a lot of thoughts about her last couple of days, last time I spoke to her etc and feeling incredibly sad and tearful. I didn’t see or speak to her every day but she was always just there. I miss her existence. I’m sure this is all normal but just needed to get it out.
Today it’s 5 months since mum died. I feel the same. The intense gut wrenching sadness has passed, but its still a rollercoaster and some days are still so tough and I’m so teary. I still replay all the events of the last few days in my mind.
I think it’s all part of the grieving process.
Hope you find comfort here.
Thanks Kate, I hope you do too. I know we’ve got to go through it but I’d like it to stop now! Xxx