Is anyone else struggling more than usual on the 6 month anniversary?
My fiancé died suddenly on 2nd Feb.
I know there have been posts on this before but it has hit me like a ton of bricks this week but especially today.
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Yeh i was pretty bad around the 6 month … ( its nearly 8 months now for me - cant really believe that ! ) have you had any bereavment counselling ? I still struggle a lot without him being here ! I still find it hard some days xxx
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I wonder if it will always be a struggle?probably!
I am starting counselling on Friday.
Also, there is a bereavement course starting in September so I’m going to go to that.
In some ways it seems ages but in other ways I still can’t believe it’s happened and I’m never going to see him again.
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I know exactly what you mean ! Its as if our world has changed in the blink of an eye 
glad you got some counselling. It will help xx
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My world literally did! I’d moved out of my house that week and we were due to get married the next day! Long story short, I’m still living in my dads spare room and looking for somewhere to buy but should have been doing it with Alister not alone!!
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Thanks for your encouraging words. I think it’s just a blip, I’ve been doing okay relatively. I hope counselling will help. I think it’s come up at the right time now.
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@Carrotsgirl
It’s 6 months for me and it’s rough. More tears than usual and everything feels hard without him. Initially when I was signed off work, my doctor said to stay in touch, apparently they notice that people struggle around the 6 months mark, she didn’t offer why but said it was very common.
I’m glad you’re getting counseling, I started a week after my partner died and had it for a few months. It was of benefit at the time.
I just try and keep busy, as I’m off work at the moment (teacher). I’ve filled the calendar with things to do but it doesn’t stop the thoughts. This was our time together, holidays, pottering, family visits etc. I feel lost at times but mostly I just crack on.
Lifes got to go on, one way or another.
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I think it’s good to keep busy. It’s when I stop!
I am so blessed to have good friends and family around.
You are right it is holidays and just the normal being with him and doing nothing. It’s grieving for what you have lost and the future.
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So did he pass away before you got chamce to get married ? xx
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You are lucky you have got that you know ! My family have been awful ! They couldnt care less what ive been through ! Theyre too busy looking after number 1 … !!!
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Six months coming up for me and I have seriously dipped…had 13 councelling sessions, but still gone down. It was our 48th Wedding Anniversary 1 August and her 67th birthday on 19…so was always going to be a hard month
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Aw yeh two big dates i don’t think counselling stops you going down tbh, it just helps you to cope with it a bit better probably ? I got 3 more sessions with mine and she has been good but it doesnt stop all the rubbish feelings we have i don’t think, it just helps to understand them a bit more ! Take care of yourself xx
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Deb, to be honest, counselling hasn’t stopped me going down. This week mine has asked me to write down my feelings put into negatives and positives. It hasn’t helped, I’m having a dreadful week. Went a lovely walk with my friend in our local park yesterday, it was a beautiful afternoon and I came home and sobbed. It just goes on and I have tried to be positive and plan days. It’s exhausting.
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Yeh i was reading in my book " the good grief guide" last night that grief can be exhausting ! Ive never thought of that before but it really is !! Xx
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Well that’s interesting and could explain why I’ve been feeling so dreadful recently. It will be 6 months for me on 11th but really doesn’t seem possible…OMG why does the stupid fat cat want to sit on me it’s still rather warm…better go!!
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Yes he passed away the day before we were getting married. He was 63 and I’m 57
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I guess from now on significant dates will be a trigger. I keep trying to remember the time we had and not focus on what I’m missing or hoped to have.
Thinking of you all.
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@Carrotsgirl, I am sorry to say that significant dates will trigger an upset, as do other things, but always remember the wonderful times you had together. He is with you in your heart and mind. Love never dies.
xx
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Its been 6 months on the 1st of this month and its really hit me today especially after today when one of the ex members of the bike club who’s been reinstated started badmouthing me.its really sent me back to edge of a black hole
So sorry Martyn2, what is wrong these people who have to be so nasty. It just takes one thing such as you’ve had, to send us back to the edge of hell, I know, I’ve had it as well,
Try and enjoy your tea
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