I lost my dad suddenly 6 weeks ago today. I did not live close to him but spoke regularly throughout the week to call and check in. I am finding the day that I had the call to say he was gone very triggering. I don’t sleep the night before, then during the day have panic stages as the day goes on and on. I feel that I am going to experience that pain and hurt every week on the day the phone rang.
I feel that the worst feeling is going to happen again and again. The pain and the hurt is there everyday to know that can not speak to him or hear his voice.
The part of not being able to say goodbye to him hurts me the most 
I am wondering if anyone has any tips on how I can make the day every week easier than finding it this hard every single Wednesday 
Hello @Cass4,
I can see that you’re new to the community, so I wanted to say that I am so sorry for the loss of your dad that brings you here.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that may help right now.
- Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
- Our free Online Bereavement Counselling which is held via video chat
- Our Bereavement Information pages can walk you through what you are going through
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Seaneen