7 years after losing my son

Tomorrow is the 7 year anniversary. I lost my 12 week old son to whooping cough. Today I feel sad and I’m missing him terribly I’m dreading tomorrow as all the memories are at the fore front of my mind. I feel as though I cannot tell people even my own family how I’m feeling as it’s been 7 years and I feel as though i may be judged as attention seeking. I almost feel like I should be over losing him. I fight my feelings as I have other children to look after. I don’t know why I’m even on here rambling. Just needed to pit this out there. I miss him and I love him and I wish he did not loose his life x