Its been 9 weeks today since I lost my fiance,funeral is only in april which ive been pushed out of my his estranged siblings so thats been even more heartbreak but ive had to say what will be will be and stay strong,ill attend even though they think I wont but why shouldnt i?,it will be there day because only i knew what he wanted but ill hold my head high then go and have a drink with the people who loved us both and knew us as the mad,happy,crazy couple we was.to say im struggling is an understatement, im just surving right now,im angry,scared,lonely,lost,tired,just all emotions running around my body non stop,some days i don’t want to be here and if wasnt for my mum,i dont think i would be i just want to be with him cuddling me,he was my soul mate since 2009,i told him everything and he had my back no matter what so now ive lost that ive never felt so alone ill never find that again, i wouldnt want too,but god its a lonely road to be in.luckily i have my memories and tons of pics cos he always said’take pics,one day thats all we will have’god was he right,this grief is absolutely draining every part of my body…i just take things day by day now…if anybody else is like me,one thing i will say,is be kind to yourself, ive only just learnt that motto xxx
Hi. I’m same as you only mine is 8 weeks this Tuesday. Everything you just said is exactly how I feel. After seeing him every day for 24 years and now trying to come to terms with the fact I’ll never see him again. Never get a text or phone call again. Never watch a film with him again. Sometimes the sadness I feel is just too much for me. I honestly think, if it wasn’t for my little dog, I wouldn’t still be here. My life seems empty now. I feel my life ended when my husbands ended. X
Awww hun,im the same…my mums now in the hospital he died in so its killing me going bk everyday, but I do it and i come home to my dog n cuddle her cos she loved my fiance so its a big help…i am literally in survival mode and im the same,we spoke,seen each other,facetimed and text every day for 17 years so now im just lost…i still txt him day n night and got a grief journal where i write to him every day about everything, it does help me…i hope your ok n looking after yourself too.xxx
I can’t even text or phone him as I cancelled his contract but for some reason I didn’t know I wouldn’t be able to text or phone him. I just didn’t think. Yeah it sounds like we both feel exactly the same. It’s going to be a very long road for us all isn’t it 
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I cancelled my husband’s contract too, but I can still text him on WhatsApp everyday.
I can’t phone him but at least I can text him. Its been 16 weeks since I lost my beloved husband to cancer.
After 22 years I feel like half of me is missing. I miss him everyday and just want him back, ive hit rock bottom and just stay in bed all day, going out when I have to.
I was the same for a while,didnt move out my bed or see anybody but just decided one morning he wouldnt want this so had a bath,and went for a long walk with my headphones in,it really helped and I try and do that most days now…the pain is always there,i dont think it will ever go but i just take things day by day now and remember all the amazing times we had together,xxx
Oh I never even thought of that. Thank u 
Hope it helps you hun,also i got a grief journal,honestly its helped me so much xx
Take care of yourself hun xxx
Your welcome xx
It aint been a week. The loss of my wife of 32 yr has broke me. 5 month illness and gone. Words of the feelings I am experiencing are undesceibable. My only thoughts are about her and if i could pull a switch i definitely would. Why? Is the biggest question, the mi d doesnt stop hoing in to overdrive
Its still early for you, im 4 months since losing my beloved husband to cancer we were together for 22 years.
Being on here with others that understand does help.
If you need to talk then we are here
Aww I’m sorry for your loss,make sure you look after yourself okay.i have been the same with the whys,but yet to find the answer,so many emotions going on but I just remember to be kind to myself and however your feeling is ok,just take things day by day…
Being here and just chatting does really help hun so reach out xxx
Aww Dan. My heart breaks for you. We have all been where you are and the pain is unbearable. I am only on week 8 of losing the love of my life to leukaemia and I’m still feeling how you are. All I can say is please accept support as you will definitely need it. I think the loss we are feeling right now can not be described unless you have gone through it. The only positive I take is that he died at home in my arms in his own bed in no pain and I really hope that you and your lovely wife made some amazing memories in your time together.
We are all here for you so please reach out whenever you need to x
Thank you
I know, i just dont understand.
Thank you x
Thank you xx
I feel your pain like you I knew my husband had my back. He loved me unconditionally and he was the only one that really knew the real me.
The funeral will be hard but stay strong he will be with you holding you up.
Take care