After a really grim day yesterday and a shaky start today, I decided to take advantage of the afternoon and try to get a sodding grip. My son took his sister out so I am on my own. I did a bit of gardening and a bit of cleaning and then I decided to get in the car. It’s only the second time I have dared to drive it, having scratched it the first time and being very nervous. I drove to the cemetery where my first husband is buried. (I know how to have a good time! 
). Anyway, I did it, with no mishaps. While I was there I had a few words with Richard, my first husband. Can’t say that I am exactly feeling happier, but at least I feel a little bit more self-confident about coping and a bit less useless. I don’t suppose it will last long, but it’s a bit of respite from all the tears yesterday.
Sending hugs and strength to everyone. Xx
Hi, I know exactly how you feel about hubby’s car. It was my Phil’s pride and joy and we had it 13 years, I’ve now driven it three times not very far I admit but I’m glad I have. I drove a lot when I was younger and I want to get back some of that confidence so I will keep going a bit at a time. The first time I drove it was a big hurdle but life is one hurdle after another now as we all know. Here’s to us all finding the strength to jump over these hurdles 
Good for you @Willow112 - I too tried to “get a grip” today so did do some mega weeding and cutting down of some bushes in our very overgrown garden.
It passed the time and I think made me feel a little better.
Just a little bit at a time but good we can encourage each other on here.
Good to both for doing the driving - it does make things so much more accessible if you feel confident. My worry is sometimes I’m just a bit distracted so am trying to really focus when I’m in the car.
Hope the rest of the day is an up. Xxx
I too had a better day today, my son came to stay, i moved the lounge furniture aroubd and it looks fresher and more spacious. My sister came for tea and stayed for the evenibg. I have have spent time in the garden without tears and enjoyed the lovely warm sunshine and all the lovely flowers. David was with me all day and i chat to him in my head. Tomorrow i have beenvinvitted on a country walk down by the Humber so hopefully it will be 2 bice days in a row. 
So glad you’ve had a better day today. Tomorrow will be one as well I’m sure.
It always feels a bit better if the sun is shining I find. Xxx