Since losing my mum on 6th Jan, I now seem to be in this state of apprehension and impending doom. The rawness of the grief is subdiding now, but it seems to have been replaced by this sense of doom. It’s always there on some level, but it tends to come in 'waves" when it hits me.
It’s absolutely horrible and I really want it to pass. Can anyone else relate to this?
The worst possible thing has already happened but i have this constant, stomache churning feeling that something worse is on it’s way and I just can’t shake it off
Hi CatDaddy.
I have the same dread… every little issue becomes a problem in the making, worrying about the worst case scenario all the time.
My mum used to say ‘put your coat on and go for a walk’, to do something to swerve you thoughts away from worrying. Everytime I have been full of dread I remember her words… and it does work too, if you let it.
Grief is awful and it really is hard to cope sometimes but with time nothing is insurmountable and we can wade through the murky waters to dry land eventually. It’s just time and giving yourself that time.
Take care and keep safe.
My kitties and dog have been there for me when no one else wanted to be.
I feel the same. Every small thing is now a really big deal & I feel scared all the time. For me too the worst possible thing has already happened in that mum has died. I suppose our brains have gone into overdrive trying to process our loss.
Thank you
I have tried to keep myself busy and that helps to a degree. It’s the stomach churning feeling that’s awful and that comes unexpectedly at times. I know it’s still early days and i just have to let it run it’s course i suppose
Yes exactly. What I’ve also found (for some strange reason) is that it’s also brought a couple of past bereavements to the fore again… most notably, a traumatic relationship breakdown from 1997 and the death of my grandmother in 1998. It’s odd because i found peace with both of those a long time ago but as you said, i think it’s my brain trying to sort things out and saying “ok, you went through something similar on these occasions” but they weren’t nearly as bad as this and not really comparable so my brain isn’t really helping at the moment