A million times I’ve missed you, a million times I’ve cried
If love could have saved you, you never would have died
The things I feel most deeply are the hardest things to say
Alan, I have loved you in a very special way
I often sit and think of you and think of how you died
To think I couldn’t say good-bye before you closed your eyes
No one can know my loneliness and no one can see me weeping
All my tears from my aching heart, while others are sleeping
If I had one life time wish, a dream that could come true
I’d pray to God with all my heart for yesterday and you.