How can it be this long already when it still feels like yesterday. I’m so brittle it doesn’t take much for the cracks to show. Everything still reminds me of you but you’re hardly mentioned. How can I keep your memory alive? What I wouldn’t give to hear your laugh. Some days are harder but Sundays are the hardest. I will always love you my darling Steve.
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Have you had any counselling? Its only 3 months since I lost my husband of 40 suddenly. You need to give yourself time as a year isn’t that long. You have done well as you have got through a year of dates that would remind you. I am dreading Christmas
My GP said he thought counselling will help me ( through Cruse as the NHS wait in our area is over a year) and he warned me that “grief last longer than sympathy” so be kind to yourself xx
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I haven’t had any counselling but you’re probably right…! I am sorry you are going through this too. I think I was on autopilot the first few months. A year of firsts has been so hard. Thank you for taking time to reply x
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The year mark is such a tough testing time and I found full of sadness, it’s like the aneasethic has worn off and you start to feel everything fully but without the initial raw intensity. Very much a time of reflection of past, present and future. Sending you a hug
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I have had all my 1sts, and it felt strange to think Rob wasn’t here. I’ve had a new grandcild that he knew was due, an 18th birthday and 21st for my older grandchildren, A level results and University celebrations as well as 2 getting gcse results. This was harder as Rob loved the grandkids and was so proud of them. We talk about him and laugh at some of the silly things he did. Memories are all we have now, but they won’t ever disappear. I tried counselling, but it wasn’t for me at the time. I keep busy and am doing lots of new things I would never have tried before, and adjusting to a new way of living its lonley but I promised I would make new memories for my grandchildren to remember me with. X
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