Can anyone relate/help/offer advice…….
The saddest thing about this whole post is that my mum is not here to ask for help anymore
It’s been just over 3 months since my mum died. My relationship is now suffering. I know I love my boyfriend deep down and he loves me, but we have only been together 18 months so this is really throwing us in the deep end. We are constantly arguing, we don’t seem alligned in each others thoughts or feelings. He has truly been amazing with trying to accommodate me however we just don’t seem to be getting on at all. All this is adding more pain and pressure on top of the grieving process. I keep telling myself to stick it out and it will get better but a few days pass and we are arguing again. I feel so cold because after watching my mum die, a relationship loss doesn’t even come close. I want things to work out with him but I can’t continue like this as it’s making things worse for me. I don’t feel it’s anyone’s fault but we are just not understanding and aligning to what each others needs are. I am not me at the moment and finding things very difficult. We have had multiple conversations and it doesn’t seem to be improving
It is the worst pain in the world nothing is worse than it.
It’s hard to explain, everything just feels so heightened.
This year would of been my mums 60th and also my 30th. Feeling so down it’s hard to plan how I’m meant to enjoy my milestone birthday this year. He is trying to make it nice for me but becoming stressed because he doesn’t know what to do. I get annoyed that he keeps bringing to my attention the fact it’s stressing him. In the grand scheme of things it’s things which wouldn’t usually have this effect but because of how terrible the situation is it is unfortunately impacting us. We are a fairly new relationship so don’t have loads of time together before as a ‘comparison’ of one another
I feel really cold and just emotionally unavailable. This is also something which is bothering him. It’s neither one’s fault it’s just how it is.
