Hey all,
My mum passed away suddenly in June last year,
Its been a while since I last posted, and i feel that I cant Accept it.
We were very close, spoke nearly daily, she passed away from bronchial pneumonia and only living 2 hours away never got to say goodbye. I did get to see her and since then and even now I feel guilty as not only not being there, I travelled to see her knowing there was hours she sadly passed away. Till this day, I feel like either i cant aceept, or i have forgotten about her and thats mainly coz i haven’t dreamed about her. We were close but why cant i dream about her, or think about her?
Am i not caring ? Which i do as love her so much and we spoke so often. I feel its just like ive nkt spoke to her for a week or so? Should i seek counciling? I need help or in put as i dont think i csn accept her being gone. I dont dream about her which i further put myself down.
I had one dream, which i was asleep and i dont think i was 100% i was in bed and felt a decrease in my bed and compression around me, it felt like she was there! But nothing since, I dont dream about her and i feel its like ive forgotten