After a year how are you supposed to feel?
I still feel
Numb
Unexcepting
I miss her
Not wanting to talk about her like she isn’t here.
Hard to pass her flat dont want to go to
Places we used to visit
Am I cracking up?
I cannot except the loss of my mum my best friend.
Hi
Sorry you are feeling this way. In my experience there is no right or wrong…I lost my dad 4 years ago and my brother 3 years ago…I don’t think there is a timeline for grief. Some days I feel ok, some days feel like the day it happened. I still think about them everyday but have to force myself not to over think it, otherwise I don’t think I could get on with everyday life.
Be kind to yourself, take each day as it comes and do what you need to do to get through the day. Sending strength and love x
Thank you for your reply. Im sorry to hear about your lossess. Yes im the same each day is different and I have to put thoughts to the back of my mind.
Its just apart of life i never wanted to happen.
Take care of yourself too xx
The only way I can function is being on autopilot. If I stop to think I stop. It’s been a little more than a year for me. I don’t suppose there is a set timeline for how you should feel, but I do wonder how long a person can endure like this. Sending a hug. 
I know exactly what you mean, losing a parent changes everything. Just know that even though it can feel very lonely, you are not alone. When you’ve had someone important in your life for so long it’s no wonder that we grieve so hard. Do reach out to someone if it starts becoming too much, I found IPT therapy quite helpful x
Understandable, we have up and down days. Don’t think that will change. But we have to find the strength to somehow to go on. I still live in the flat I shared with mum and there’s memories everywhere. Only yesterday I watched Jurassic Park on TV and thought mum would have liked this if she had been with me. But maybe mum was watching from the spirit realm ? Like some one has said be kind to yourself and you can always come on here and post. TC Cadbury!
Thank you for your kind replies. Yes it does feel very lonely at times.
Sending strength to you all. I am having counselling and when i am back in work i wont have as much time to think.
Can I ask what I PT therapy is?
ULma it is just over a year for me too.
Keith how are you doing?
I’m ok Cadbury, yourself ? I still get my moments. Mostly triggered by memories of even a film. Someone told me once our parents live on in us, I think that might be true. We are them!
I’m glad to hear you are ok. Yes, they definitely live on in us. I hear myself saying things my mum used to say. I look at my reflection and see my mum.
Im triggered by memories, too, and places
Thank you for your support.
It’s ok, we all have this connection. I looked at myself in the mirror and kind of thought can I see mum ? So many times have I read stuff on here and thought I could of typed that.