Yes …that is how I feel …after 52 years of the most wonderful marriage 3 kids and 4 Grandchildren each and everyone a delight in my life …bless them all …but yet I am alone as Alan has gone …the feeling when in Company is very strange …sometimes you find yourself looking for him in a crowd…and this is after 18 months everything in my life is different …yet all that has changed is Alan has passed …I know my life will never be the same again Bless him 