I went to a dear friends party this evening
They were our friends for all our married life. I went because I felt I needed to go as they are such good friends
I was doing quite well
Until we all sat down to eat, and I was the only single without a partner
I left as soon as I politely could.
I cried all the way home in the taxi, got indoors and sob for over an hour.
I missed him so much tonight that it physically hurts.
I have sleeping tablets I trynot to use but tonight I am going too
Hopefully I will sleep.
I don’t think I will ever be able to do social gatherings without him.
This is an existence not a life
Life is so cruel
Thinking of you all