First time in 2 years since my husband passed I went to a retirement party with my daughter, omg I felt so alone watching people with their partners/husbands . It was so hard I tried not to cry but felt empty, don’t get me wrong I joined in conversation but it didn’t feel right , I carnt face that feeling again I’m not the same Tony and I were always together a team a soul mate I’m just so alone and empty
I know what you mean @cazy1020 and it’s something that never goes away, it’s something we never get used to, the aloneness. I never feel lonely but I often feel alone. I can look at couples, particularly older couples and I ache for that togetherness. Well done you for going, because it’s much easier to decline invitations. x
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Being lonely in a crowd seems to be common on this forum. Its my last problem to solve, and the only way I cope is to say no to invites to large do’s of this sort. I turned one down only a few days ago.
I think the issue is that it makes you realise many times, that the person you want to be there with you isn’t and never will be.
Particularly if the other people there are not sharing your grief.
So I now avoid them like the plague.
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