So funeral was soul destroying, my heart broke and it cant be fixed, my son done amazing reading letters from myself and marks family, the service was so emotional as had 2 of the songs mark always sang to me and he would message me them when he was still living in essex and we had his west ham song for when the curtain came down. I cant believe this is happening i cant comprehend any of it and i am a stage i am desperate for rhe call feom gp on friday and then call from mental health beginning of nxt month as i desperately need help. My life sucks and i hate it with a vengeance, i try to put on an act for my kids when deep in my soul iv had enough and dont want to spend the rest of my life in limbo x sorry for the depressed message.x
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Well done for getting through it. I hope your GP can help. Sending hugs and so much sympathy.
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Thanks you i hope.so too, diazepam helps for short time although didnt help at funeral but had my dad who has dementia who was great for dad hugs but didnt really focus on what was happening. I know im depressed and i know i need help. Im happy matks family were pleased with all the arrangements as they had to watch via livestream xx
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