My mother died in a Hospice 9 months ago and I am only now getting mood swings where I’m happy and content to getting angry. Is this grief. When I mention to some people that my mother died in a Hospice- some people say ‘well, I looked after my mother at home until she died’. They don’t know the circumstances of why my mother was in a Hospice and instead go all self righteous on me, I feel. Thinking about that makes me angry now. Are my mood swings of okay to anger part of grief or should I be ok now?
I think what you are feeling is all part of the grieving process. I have really bad mood swings myself. I lost my mother on the 10th March. One minute I’m semi like myself again and the next I’m either sobbing my heart out, or raging against the world. The funny thing is, I can’t understand why the rest of the world isn’t feeling my pain. Which is ridiculous but is how this grief is hurting me. Time will make me learn to live with my grief, to make me come to terms that my life has changed and this pain I feel will always be here, but I (hopefully) will be able to deal with it slightly better than I am.
Grief is the price we pay for loving someone. But also try to take care of yourself.