It will be a year in April since l lost my husband of 58 yrs ,l am dreading that day more than words can say,this year has been the worse year of my life ,l wake up thinking of him and get through the day ,always he is on my mind l talk to him get angry with him ,l break day in tears when l can’t do the smallest of things,l am learning to do things that he did, l am digging the garden mending a broken gate ,l am just about to lay some gravel, l have no one to help , things l want doing its either ignored,or yes l will come sometime,that day never comes ,some days l get so frustrated,l think what is the point,then l get angry/sad he is not here by my side ,people now have stopped asking how am l doing,they think you should be over it now ,l just now say yes lm fine,the future is not there anymore just day by day ,it’s been a while since l posted but l need to get these feelings out ,love to everyone
Hello @GINNY3,
I’m so sorry to hear about your husband and how lonely and unsupported you are feeling.
Whether it has been one, five or ten years since the person you’re grieving for died, coping with a death anniversary can bring about new feelings each year. You might find our support page on coping with anniversaries helpful to read.
If you need any extra support yourself, we’re here to help. As well as the community, we also have bereavement support information, Grief Guide and our Grief Kind spaces. You can find out more about our bereavement services at sueryder.org/support 
Take care and keep reaching out,
Alex