its nearly a year since Gill died , I made some progress with coping but a few months ago I slid back , I feel worse now than ever and wish I could go to sleep and not wake up . I have a friend who visits nearly every weekend for a couple of hours and has been so supportive she has literally saved my life I go to bereavement meetings every 2 weeks but I feel so alone , I get upset easily and cry a lot not eating properly doesn’t help I am spiralling down and cant seem to stop not sure if I want to , so lonely it hurts this world is cruel, sorry for the rant but nobody to talk to so this might help.


Hello Nipper

I’m so sorry to hear about Gill. It sounds as though things are very tough and you are feeling really low.

It sounds like you’re looking for support and I’m glad that you’ve been able to talk about how you’re feeling here. We know that a lot of people experience suicidal thoughts when they are grieving. We have a video about it here which you might find helpful:

There is lots of other support out there, and I would really encourage you to reach out and speak to someone about how you are feeling.

  • If these thoughts of suicide become overwhelming, please call 999 or contact your GP for an emergency appointment immediately.
  • Samaritans are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
  • Shout are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text REMEDY to 85258 and talk to them about anything.

Sue Ryder offers an online bereavement counselling service. This is a free service and sessions are held via video chat so you can attend from home. There’s more information about this service here:

You can also make an appointment with your GP and ask to be referred to counselling or other support services in your area.

You deserve care and support so please, get in touch with one of these services.

Take care,


Sorry to hear how you are feeling
It has only been 9 weeks since my husband passed. O
9 lonrelyweeks first 2weekd i has my daughter who stays in Australia with me so that helped ease the loneliness but her life is on australia and she had to ho back to her own family. Now just days of getting by and being on my own again. She phones every few days and it ni e to hear her voice i get upset and feel alone in my grief. I have tried yo talk to neighbours and have a friend who stays miles away who contacts me every three days to see how im doing
I try to go fir walk or into garden ut

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