Another day of loneliness and struggling

Good morning from an extremely grey wet morning in scotland. How is everyone? Im sitting here numb, still trying to process everyrhing thats happening, feels like a dream eveey morning i wake up. Im now also panicking because my oldest son is going on holiday for 2 weeks ,sending love to everyone on this painful journey x

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Grey and miserable in Wiltshire as well thats me and the weather! I go out to keep busy then come home and whoosh it hits me - the silence and knowledge that my dear Dave is not ever coming home. Actually I get the whoosh everywhere but at least at home no-one is looking at a mad wailing woman. Only seven weeks for me so early days but I can’t see it getting better any time soon. Maybe do a list of things you can do when your son is away to keep busy.

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Im hoping to go back to work in 2 weeks , i know i am not ready yet still so much in my head , im a wailing mess as my son has had to go to work he has dealt with everything and he did the same when my husband died he needs his holiday and i want him to have the best time i will miss him dearly i still have my daughter and youngest son so i am fortunate, when anyone leaves im a snivelling mess. Never thought id be back in this poistion again, i know we all die but its so friggen cruel iv dealt with 2 ,have ypu got family and friends for support xx

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Yes I have a son and daughter who live not too far away but they are grieving as well so I try not to burden them too much. It’s difficult to explain the aching void losing your partner of 58 years leaves. Just trying to take each day at a time at the moment.

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Its so bloody hard, my family pop in and out throughout the day but its rhe quietness, long night when everyone has gone that druves me mad x

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My heartfelt sympathy to everyone.
It’s so tough at times. But one day at a time, that’s all we can do.
I’m blessed with wonderful family and friends. All very caring and most check in on me
It’s the evening that’s worse since I lost my Rog from a massive stroke in May.
I prefer being at work now. But you still have to come home.
I can’t bear it now when people complain at petty things…I just bite my tongue!

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Hello Topbun,
Welcome to the club no one wants to be in,in my case it’s one step forward two steps back.
Kind regards Ron.

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Morning everyone, it’s a windy day here in Lincoln! My husband Paul only died 6th July so still very difficult but I’m taking things at my own pace and this feeling of extreme sorrow and pain has become part of me now. My adult children and my grandchildren are getting me through as best they can whilst dealing with their own grief. Despite living alone now I can sense my husband is here with me and I feel safe believing that to be true. X

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Sending you a hug. It’s early days and soglad you have your family as I have too.

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Agree when you here people complaining you just wanted to scream at them to srep in to our shoes

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Only think keeping me going

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Im glad you feel ur husbands presence and it is helping you, i dont know how i feel to be honest, 2nd time around for me but different deaths

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