Anxiety

[Steve77]

Thank you both for your kind replies

I’m sat here tonight in the house alone for the first time, both our children (20 and 18) are out with their separate friends this evening and staying with them until the morning. I also went shopping for our daughters birthday today for the first time alone, I fear we face a whole year of “firsts” without those we loved beside us.

I’m cuddled up to our three little dogs but I just feel sick and alone. I miss the conversation and the laughter, Melissa giggling at the tv and cooing at the dogs she was devoted to. I used to sit and hold her hand on the sofa with the dogs all sat around us and it’s breaking me that I’ll never hear her voice again or be able to hug her.

I’ve booked to go back to the gym tomorrow but I’m feeling guilty already that I’m daring to do something we used to do together without her. Pretty sure she’d tell me off for being an idiot about it and to just get on with it so I’ll go but it won’t stop that awful hollow feeling.

this is so very hard.

[Nel]

Hi Steve sorry for your loss. I lost my husband ten months ago and am really struggling with the anxiety. I spoke to the doctor and she has given me propranolol 80mg slow release which ha really helped. You may want to try this. All we can do is move forward an hour at a time. At the moment if I think of the good times we spent together all I can see is the great loss. I am told in time this will change and I will smile about the fun we had. Take care x