Hiw do people get through this? Just seems to get worse.
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I’m afraid I don’t have the answer. Five months tomorrow and I’m numb now. Tried so many things to keep busy and carry on, but nothing works.
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Im coming up to 4 months and it honestly feels like its getting worse. Just want to go to sleep and not wake up.
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11 weeks for me , no warning for my husbands sudden heart attack , even though he had a previous heart smaller heart attack 20+years earlier the fatal one was nothing like the first time , he didn’t even know he was having a heart attack 2nd time ! I just have to say he passed out first he knew nothing . But I know everything x
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I’m 3 and 1/2 months in and I also feel like it is getting worse. You are not alone in feeling that way @Cab
Every day I cry more, feel less able to cope and no matter what I try to do - exercise, take up new hobbies, see people, self isolate, clean, garden, …. - I still feel like life is pointless, I have no reason to live and my future without him is terrifying.
My counsellor says all the shock and numbness has now gone and I’m near the bottom of the grief ladder where I might stay for a while before I am able to start healing.
No idea how long I’ll be there, but it is absolute hell.
She said as our love was so rich it will be a long and difficult journey.
I kind of wish now we had had a shit marriage. But we didn’t - were very happy - and had 4 amazing kids.
Lost him way too young at 56 after short fight with rare untreatable cancer - just didn’t see it coming at all.
Not sure how to keep going either - except I promised him I’d look after the kids.
Sorry - not much help from me - but can send a virtual hug your way 
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I know this is the section for partners, but we lost my dad to a cardiac arrest that began with a silent heart attack. He and my mum were together at home. He’d been sawing wood in the back yard and had come indoors feeling too tired to continue. He didn’t express that he had any pain, chest tightness or breathlessness. My mum suggested that he go to bed and rest. He said no, he’d be fine. She said that on reflection he did look a little pale. He made himself a cup of tea, and sat down at his laptop. Oh, and he had fallen asleep for a little while in the armchair, which she has since said she should have realised was unusual. During that whole time, he was having a heart attack but didn’t know it.
And then he lost consciousness while sitting at the laptop. My mum heard, and rushed in straight away. She rang for an ambulance and had to drag my dad onto the floor and attempt CPR.
Had I have been there (and I usually was, because I regularly worked from home at their house) then I would have known exactly what to do because I have witnessed CPR in real life. I thought it was enough that I was competent to do it, but I never thought of teaching those around me. I’ve since taught my brother. I think it would be too traumatic for my mum if I tried to teach her, now.
I think I’ve learnt, too late for my dad, that cardiac issues are rife in men, and many are silent. You know Movember? Heart disease isn’t one of the areas they fundraise for. It’s definitely prostate cancer. Not sure what else. But cardiac is a massive killer, but in my humble opinion it feels like it’s been swamped by cancer, and I’d only like to make the point that in many cases cancer is man-made, in that it’s caused by contamination from carcinogens (nuclear power, chemical plants, talcum powder, food additives…).
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If you are devastated after losing someone you love I guess it doesn’t matter what caused it, the pain is the same.
I have lost two husbands to cardiac arrest. My first husband was an athlete, he died whilst training. My second husband had a cardiac arrest in bed, next to me. I did CPR for 15 minutes until help arrived. I thought he was going to pull through, they induced a coma but he never regained consciousness and died three weeks later in hospital.
Neither of my husbands had a history of heart problems. Both were fit and well as far as I knew.
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