Thought I was doing ok last couple days, all considering. But today that tsunami hit me again. I had a dental appointment this afternoon, didn’t go well, she didn’t seem to know her stuff, and none of suggestions about what could be done with my broken tooth made any sense - 'I could fill it but it may give great pain after, and you’ll probably end up with abscess '; ‘it may need root canal work but I would recommend specialized dentistry’, and on and on. She didn’t seem to know herself what to do. I was tearful when I left, and when back home I sobbed my heart out. The grief, it overwhelmed me, I wanted my Sarah so so much. Hating feeling like this.
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Hi @Lydia3,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Alex
I too thought I was doing much better. I’ve been out today chatting with people, talking about my daughter only to get home to an empty house and sobbing. Loud, heartbroken sobs. I just want her back with me! All the Christmas ads on TV are just emphasising my sadness. She was so positive all the way through her treatment and never believed that last Christmas would be her last. It’s just so hard to bear.
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Talisker, I hear you. It strikes out of the blue. And all you want to do is shout ‘I want her! I need her’. I guess it will like this for a very long time. I was beginning to think I was bipolar at the point - one minute doing normal stuff, apparently 'getting there’s, then crash, a gigantic wave of sadness and power rendering you powerless, broken, weak, and dreadfully in pain and sadness.
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Sending you much love and deepest sympathies x