Today has been such a bad day, its only been 4 days but feels like forever. I know i will have days like this and it is still so fresh. I have a physical pain in my heart. My husband was my absolute world, we spent every day together. I miss his cuddles, hearing i love you., everything about him.
I talk to him all the time but the house is so empty.
I try to go for a walk every day because it becomes too overwhelming but around 3pm till about 6, a darkness comes over me and i feel like i cant breath.
I just cant imagine continuing my life without him, and at the moment i dont want to. Im 43 and the thought of the years ahead alone is too much. He would have been 57 tomorrow. Life is so cruel and unfair, he was the kindest, most generous man i have ever met. My soulmate.
@Mrs-S, I am so sorry for your loss. Today is 29 weeks since I lost my husband, best friend and soulmate. Every day has been such a struggle. Those first days I was numb and in shock. I still don’t know how to survive the rest of my life without him, but somehow I am getting through the days just taking an hour at a time. Hearing other people’s stories on here has been a lifeline, just knowing others understand what you’re going through. Please take care of yourself as best as you can. It’s a very difficult road to travel, but somehow we have to keep going. I hope it is some comfort knowing others understand x
I am so sorry for your loss, Mrs-S. I understand the pain you must be going through. Time goes so slowly for me too. Days feel like weeks.
My wife was 57 when she died suddenly six weeks ago. The shock and pain of losing her is unbearable. She was my whole world and meant absolutely everything to me. She was all I ever wanted and much more.
The idea of living a life without her terrifies me. I still talk to her. I tell her where I’m going, when I will be back and what I have been doing. I can’t accept that she is no longer here. She was so full of life.
I hope you get through tomorrow the best you can Mrs-S. Life really is cruel and unfair but please remember we are all here for you and understand what you are going through.