Oh, crikey no.
But all sorts of other things have happened, very strange things indeed. I haven’t dreamt about Jim at all, but at times I can feel his presence, almost as if he is watching over me.
How old is your daughter? Is this upsetting her? I remember my mother was endlessly restless after my dad died, but she didn’t cry until her mother died. I couldn’t understand why, because before that she’d always said she didn’t like her mother at all. I was about 8 at the time.
The death of a soulmate is a life shattering experience, at least it has been for me. Things that wouldn’t have happened if Jim was around keep on happening, to me, the house that we lived in, to my car, etc… Like for some reason I was bullied by a car relay insurance that we have had for all of our married life. I’m lucky, because I have an income and a small pension, so I have enough money to get by. However, one of our dreams was to buy an electrical car, so I did that - my licence had been cancelled by the DVLA, and after a 9 month struggle I managed to get it back. That would not have happened if Jim had been with me, he would have sorted the rude bloke out without any problems at all.
In the house, a tap needs to be replaced, he would have done that in a jiffy. But it keeps on dripping and driving my nuts, somehow it set off the extractor fans in the bedroom up stairs and down stairs, which created a roar like a whirlwind throughout the house. That drove me nuts until a neighbour and I - both females - managed to turn off the fans by disconnecting them. The plumber is bring a new tap, and then he or the electrician can connect the fans. Meanwhile, thankfully, because there is only me here, and usually 3 dogs, the house doesn’t stink.
It’s as if my whole life had been unbalanced, unhinged, unhooked.
It’s settling down now, I hope. I just want to sell this house with it’s memories and echoes everywhere, and move to a new one we bought last year, before the COVID lockdowns started…
None of us knew what a pandemic would mean, and how it has cost millions of lives all over the world. I wish I could roll back time, but I can’t…