I lost my mum last October to cancer i had to move house and my whole world come crashing down around me i lived with my mum for 38 years my whole life and i know no different i have family around me but i feel so alone i want to scream but no one can hear me
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Jonathon. I’m sorry to hear about your loss of your mum. But I’m glad you’re talking on here. You’re going to find others here who can relate to your grief and situation. I lost my wife in November and people here have been so kind and supportive. We had Mary’s parents living with us from 1985 to 2008, and she never quite got over them passing away in 2004 and 2008. It was like losing a partner because they had been together for so long, as you have with your mum. I lost my own mum the same weekend that Mary lost her mum, and less than a week before Christmas. I find great comfort by talking to my wife at her grave and over Christmas I’ve done that at home too. She’d bought me a beautiful card and humorous t shirts. So I just had to say thank you. Both you and I are in fairly early stages of our journeys and sometimes the future looks so bleak we wonder how we will cope. It will take time but I’m confident we can get through this and come out the other side. I’ve had to accept that I’ll likely have good and bad times but I’m going to just let things flow - including the tears - and not care what others think. It’s our life to cry if we need and I don’t think I’m any less of a man by doing that. In fact it makes us more of a man by admitting we have frailties. I send you best wishes and hope you continue to engage with people here. Regards M
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@Jonathonr25
Scream away because we all hear you and we’re all listening.
All have lost someone they love and are going through similar pain and grief.
Sending hugs to you
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I hear you @Jonathonr25 & I feel your pain.
I’m screaming too after losing my mum 5 months ago 
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So sorry for your loss. It is a difficult path you are on. I lost my husband in September 2024 and have not lived alone for 39 years and I hate being without him so I do understand. Use the forum to express your feelings and get support
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I have cried so many tears I’ve lost my best friend my dad I would just love to feel like a real person again. I can just sit for hours feeling so detached from the world. The sad reality is that so many of us have these feelings and also have family but feel so very alone . It’s heartbreaking
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Yes Maggie, I’ve a 20 strong family (just children, partners and grandchildren) and my daughter lives next door. We all got together for Christmas and as many as possible last night too, but then coming home to my empty house leaves me lonely once again. I just wish I had any enthusiasm for anything at the moment! Hugs M xxx
Such a hard emotional empty feeling to deal with as nothing makes it go away . I would rather have pain at least you can deal with it somehow. Just lost at the moment . I have 3 grown children 2 live away and 1 not far but I don’t want to pile it on them . Thank you for your reply it means a lot almost not quite so alone . Sending you a warm hug from my heart .
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I wrote this today for my darling wife Mary. I hope it might resonate with some of you here too. Sorry if it makes you tearful as others have told me it did!
2025 – For Mary. 1 January 2025
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
But all those days without you,
are going to be so tough.
Just 44 days without you,
Has been so incredibly rough.
But each extra day without you,
Makes me love you a little bit more.
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
A whole year of days to get through,
Instead of just 44.
A year full of days without you
Is oh, so, so, much more,
But each extra day without you,
Makes me love you even more.
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
But that’s a year to get through,
not just a month and a half.
We had many a day together,
In love, with time to laugh.
But each extra day without you,
Makes me love you a little bit more.
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
But I don’t see how that’s true,
As I can’t now spend it with you,
And without you there beside me,
Many a tear will flow.
But every day without you,
Makes me love you a whole lot more.
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
But without you there to guide me.
I honestly am not sure.
I won’t have you there to join me,
To do the things we’d planned,
But every day without you,
Simply makes me love you more.
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
But without you there beside me,
I really can’t be sure.
I’ll miss you in the morning,
I’ll miss you in the night,
But every day without you,
Makes me love you that little bit more.
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
But I’ll miss the little things you did,
Like you always being late.
You always had a smile,
For everyone the same,
And every day without you,
Makes me love you a little bit more.
They say that 2025 will be better than 24,
But I’ll never hold your hand again,
Like we oh so often did,
Nor kiss you, nor hug you,
Just little things like that.
But every day without you,
Makes me love you a whole lot more.
But every day without you,
Makes me love you a whole lot more.
Hello that was a beautiful beautiful heart felt inspiring message to read . They say we all have to deal with the passing of someone we love so very much BUT somehow that just does not help! Although life will not be the same maybe that is what life is about Being lucky enough to have felt love and affection 
just maybe there is more ahead even if different and difficult . Easier to say than do . Each day step one step forward that is all I can do . My Dad was my best best friend and there is not a replacement neither should there be ! BUT I will move forward even if very slowly and feeling so alone . I really do hope from my heart you will too . Warm Hug
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