I am struggling with the loss of my friend. He took his life earlier this year and I just dont feel myself coming to terms with it. I didn’t believe he had died until i arrived at the funeral. And even now sometimes I catch myself thinking he must still be alive. It’s as if I am trying to convince my own brain that he can’t possibly be dead.
I am suffering a lot of guilt. Perhaps if I was a better friend he wouldn’t have chosen to go. I knew he was depressed but I didn’t feel it was appropriate of me to talk about it or ask if he was getting help. I feel I could have done more to prevent what happened. I feel like I failed him and his family.
I know these things are not true. He made that choice and he followed it through.
I still feel like shit though. And I miss him
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Hello @Rainbows82,
I can see that you’re new to the community. I hope you find it to be a support to you, but I am so sorry for the loss of your friend that brings you here.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, I just wanted to share some links that might help you right now.
- Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide offer support to people over 18 who have been affected by suicide. They have a supportline on 0300 111 5065 and run support groups nationally.
- Support after Suicide has a list of local and national support.
You might also want to explore our Online Bereavement Support, where you find our Grief Guide self-help platform, our Grief Coach text support service, and how to access our Online Bereavement Counselling.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Seaneen
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