Tomorrow is my first birthday after losing my mum to cancer 3 months ago. I’m dreading it. I have young children and they’re so excited about celebrating my birthday but I’m just miserable without my mum
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Sorry to hear this . I lost my mum last December, it was my first birthday in March without my mum . I was so sad , mum always rang me wish me happy birthday , l could not stop crying . It hard to put on a brave face when yr heart is breaking , the pain is brutal , l really feel for you
Thank you. I’m so sorry for your loss. Navigating all of this is so much harder than I ever imagined
I had this, my first birthday post the loss of both my parents. It was unexpected how hard it was, especially as it was a sunny day which they would have loved, and given last year I spent my birthday weekend with both of them.
I thought this year I would spend my birthday alone to finally decompress and rest up, pamper myself with a soak in the bath, face masks, beauty rituals, Netflix, but instead I just felt empty and drank wine instead, then had an early night.
Additionally, last year I spent the following week celebrating my birthday abroad with my partner, our first holiday. We planned another holiday this year, but before we could book it, he became sick, and is now terminal.
He was in hospital this birthday too, which added to the emptiness of my parents not being there.
Two years time, it will be my big 5-0, I hope it will be a much more joyous celebration 
Just saw you posted this yesterday, I hope you still managed to enjoy your birthday today and celebrate with the kids. I’m sure your Mum would have wanted you to 
I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this
Same as you, I ended up drinking too much and attempted to block it all out. Feeling like crap today. Its so hard
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