Birthday

Tomorrow it will be 2 months since my husband passed away. It’s his birthday on Thursday. I’d normally make him a couple of cards, get a few presents and arrange a day out (holiday before the Cancer) now there’s nothing to look forward to. I’ll visit the grave, check the headstone is installed, take flowers, a little cake and a candle that plays Happy Birthday. I can’t bring myself to make any cards but found a lovely verse online that I’ll probably write out in a shop bought card. Life has absolutely no meaning and looks extremely bleak. How does one cope with these special days?