Blaming myself for my fathers death

A few years back when covid was in full swing, i split up with my ex partner and moved back in with my parents while working i contracted covid which in turn i passed it on to my mother and father, due to living in close proximity with them my father became extremely ill. Within 10 days he was on end of life care then sadly passed away. for the past few years iv not been able to not blame myself for it i feel as if its all my fault. And it breaks my heart seeing my mother struggling without him

Hello @And,

Thank you for reaching out. I can see you’re new to the community - I really hope you find it to be a support to you, but I’m so sorry for the loss of your dad that brings you here.

Blaming ourselves for our loved one’s death can be a part of grieving, but it sounds like this has been something so painful that you’ve been feeling for years, is that right?

If you haven’t already, it may be a good idea to speak to a bereavement counsellor. If you’re interested in counselling, we offer free sessions at Sue Ryder. Your GP can also refer to services in your area.

I’m sure someone will along to offer their support, but I wanted to share that link with you and let you know that you have been heard and are not alone.

Take care,
Seaneen