Boyfriend jumped while on drugs

Losing a partner
#1

I don’t even know where to start it just happened a few hours ago and I’m in total shock. I’ve been sharing with a lot of friends and my parents but I just want to write down something. My boyfriend is only 19. I’m 18. He decided to take drugs with his friend. It wasn’t the first time so I didn’t think nothing of it. Hours later I get a call from the police that he had a panic attack and jumped off his balcony. I know it’s because of the drugs. Although he had depression it has been going really well for the past months and he was seeing a therapist sometimes. I’m heartbroken I’m devastated I’m in the worst pain of my life. Wake me up from that nightmare.

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#2

Hello @Thienlyjade,

I’m so sorry to read about your boyfriend - it is devastating and it sounds as though it was a massive shock to you. Your loss is so recent that you are bound to feeling so many different emotions right now.

I just wanted to reach out to thank you for sharing so honestly and to let you know there is lots of support out there. I’m glad you have your family and parents, but if you need to, I would really encourage you to speak to someone about how you are feeling. I think you might be outside the UK, so you may want to look at Befrienders Worldwide which can show you local support options.

When you feel ready to, you might also want to look at some of our Sue Ryder resources, too:

  • Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief

  • Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.

I really hope you find the community to be a support to you, too - you are not alone.

Seaneen

#3

I’m so so sorry for your loss and the awful pain you must be in. Keep talking to people on here - it’s a good community and it can be helpful to talk to others who are in pain too.
I’ve found the Samaritans are really good if it all feels too much, especially in the middle of the night. They just listen and it can help just to tell someone who you don’t know about the situation.
Your doctor is also a good person to speak to - mine was very helpful. They may be able to arrange therapy etc for you.
My heart goes out to you xx

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#4

You poor thing and both so young. Good you have written it down. Keep talking. Xx

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#5

So sorry to hear this.please reach out for help on hear and please dont bottle everything up.we are all here to support each other

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