I dip in and out of the group, often visiting when I am really low and see no point carrying on. I visit having the idea about making a post but then I feel guilty for spreading misery so decide not to , same with friends, I just say I am fine, the idea of being a burden does not appeal to Me.
So this post is just about a little joy that came my way.
I was taken into hospital in a hurry, so had no toileteries etc and since the passing of My partner have no one to bring Me bits and bobs to the 2 bed ward(Spain). Well I could have asked friends but as above did not wish to bother them, I have slipped back into staying indoors and becoming more introverted.
The second evening one of the daughters of the other patient placed a pair of new flip flops by my bed, smiled and placed various well thought practical items to keep Me going on the bedside table.
Reaching for my wallet, Mohammed my neighbour raised his voice talking to his son, not being able to understand Arabic his son said , you are forbidden to pay. I glanced at Mohammed and got a stern wagging finger.
Later that evening, dinner arrived, the tray was immediately removed by his daughter who replaced the hopital food with an array of really tasty food, second message from the head of family translated by son, “You will eat what We eat every night”, another stern look from Mohammed.
Just an amazing uplifting experience I felt alive, relevant
10 months since loosing My partner Yvette this hospital stay made Me think that We need to look after our health without our partners, even if it seems such a pointless effort, We must try, I felt it was wrong that my neglect puts strain on medical resources.
I had nothing in return to offer the kindness of this family, which made Me sad, but excepting help with good grace has been a new and valuable experience. Maybe I should open up a bit more to friends, its just being ex military it doesnt come easy.
Nothing good can happen staying indoors, lets all try and get out more but maybe not to the hospital !
Mostly I cannot see a future for Me age, prospects bla bla bla, but this lovely experience provided a bright moment in another wise dark nightmare for which I am truly grateful.
