Right i know its a controversial topic so if you dont agree with abortion please just click off and dont hurl abuse at me. So nearly 2 years ago i got pregnant, i was 17 nearly 18. I made the decision with a lot of persuasion and scaring from my ex partners parents to not go through with my pregancy. Back then i was naive and easy to change my mind so i had the abortion. After it i felt awful and regretted it terribly, still do. I cry a lot of nights feeling very heart broken abt it, he or she would have been 1 last month and that destroys me especially when i see babies that age. My parents disliked me for the decision i made and we didnt speak for like a year properly, i talk to them now but its not something we talk abt. While i was going through it and after i got called a baby murderer, i got added to group chats on snap chat with people saying some really horrible stuff abt it as one of my old mates told everyone. Lately the pain is killing me, it hurts a lot and i cant even change what i did. I just dont know how to cope with it. Last night i bawled my eyes out and woke my now partner up, he doesnt know how to comfort me as he hasnt gone through this so the most he can do is give me a hug and tell me im okay. He went through something as what i see is a lot worse, he had a kid taken off him because the mum was not a good mum and they didnt even look into him so he never got the chance. I feel guilty because other people like him have had things a lot worse. I just hurt a lot and i want my baby but ik its too late for that
Hello @StrawberrySh0rtcake ,
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve been going through. I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Alex
What shocking things to say to you and go through.
I do not judge, been through the same as you. I was pressured into the decision but now I see it as the right decision,
I still think about it and how old they be. But it wasn’t the right time and circumstances. I see that now.
Don’t be hard on yourself, you say you have a partner… I hope you are happy and have a happy life
Thank you i really appreciate it. I guess not everyone is nice but im glad you are. Sorry you went though it too